Down - Jason Walker

I don't know where I'm at
I'm standing at the back
and I'm tired of waiting

Waiting here in line
hoping that I'll find
what I've been chasing

I shot for the sky
I'm stuck on the ground
so why do I try
I know I'm gonna fall down
I thought I could fly
so why did I drown
I'll never know why it's coming down down down

Not ready to let go
Cause then I'd never know
What I could be missing

But I'm missing way to much
so when do I give up
what I've been wishing for

Oh I am going down down down
Can't find another way around
and I don't wanna hear the sound
of losing what I never found

I Go Crazy - DHT

Hello boy it's been a while
Guess you'll be glad to know
That I've learned how to laugh and smile
Getting over you was slow
They say old lovers can be good friends
But I never thought I'd really see you
I'd really see you again

I go crazy
When I look in your eyes
I still go crazy
No my heart just can't hide that old feeling inside
Way deep down inside
Oh baby you know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy

You say she satisfies your mind
Tells you all of her dreams
I know how much that means to you
I realize that I was blind
Just when I thought I was over you
I see your face and it just ain't true
No it just ain't true

3rd trailer 4 new moon, can it get any better ?!!

Twenty Freakin' Five.... Here I come !

PS: I already hate u
so plz prove that ur worth the good wishes
I hear from Family and Friends
Also, they are planning a surprise BD party
so plz don't throw their efforts away

Make Me Happy this year

I was tagged by my Fellow Blogger BaTaBeeT to do the thankful list !


The Rules of the Tag:

• The point is to say a heartfelt ‘Thank God’. So, you’ll have to choose power blessings, ones that really really are endowments, that you couldn’t possibly feel deeper gratitude towards God for. Ones that you feel grateful for, everyday.
• After each blessing, you’ll have to choose one word to describe your state. Examples: “Happy”, “Excited”, “Thankful”, “Humble”. Or, you have to choose any word that comes to your mind after it anyway – one that’ll summarize it all.
• The ones you’d choose are preferred to be special to you, for instance, we all know that ‘Eye Sight’ is an immense blessing, and of course we can list it, but preferably if it has a special meaning to us.
• The number of your blessings should be between 5 and 10.
• After finishing your list, you should write the word: “El7amodellah” in bold, and say it out loud.
• You should tag as many friends as you can – even the ones who don’t blog, inform them that they must comment.
• After that, well, all you do is to be happy and to have ‘Reda’ :)

So here we go:



1st I am thankful for my family. I have the kindest mom ever, a funny dad and two loving understanding brothers. Not to mention my beautiful cats that change my mood by playing hide and seek or running after them


My word: A+ Family


2nd I am grateful for my job at the family pharmacy, I know I always complain about it, still it is nice to be ur own boss beside I don't get to work many hours as other ppl in spite of working 7 days a week. Through my work there, I discovered my ability to lead,manage and organize every detail. I am like this tiny business women that run everything perfect ably but never knew she is capable of that.


My word: New discovery

3rd I am blessed with ppl's love. They say I huv a soothing, angelic face (they never saw my mad attacks or my bad temper of course ;), also blessed wiz a sour tongue, sarcastic as hell and u could say sometimes I tend to be funny...


My word: Deception ;)


4th I am grateful for my friends, they put up wiz my mood swings, my nagging and depressed episodes. They also listen to my blabla and the fairy ideas I get.. Once I wanted to go search 4 vampires and my friend got to listen to my plan 4 that :))


My word: Soul Mates


5th I am thankful 4 the all the machines that simplifies our life, the washing machine, dish washer,iron and the best of all TV and pc..


My word: Technology


6th I am thankful for being able to eat all these sweets and junk food without gaining any weight. it is a blessing not to huv t watch for my weight and follow diets or buy expensive drugs to lose weight.


My word: Fitness


7th I am thankful for taking control over my income and being able to save money.. I can get my own car now wiz no need for dad's help


My word: Independence

Al 7amd le alah

I tag everyone for this especially: Hassnaa, Epitaph, Slope and Sarah

Special thnks 4 Batbeet 4 tagging me ;)

One day off ...

If u took one day off to spend alone,
where would u go and what will u do ??

Pray more, Eat less.... HaPpY RamDaN :)

As promised !!

I promised u a dark post and here it is :

I don't where to begin coz nothing is going right now, as I mentioned b4 the illness of my grandma.


Well, actually she had a head stroke that affected her ability to walk. Doctors said that she would recover by time but since when doctors are right.


Her case has been worsening by time especially psychologically, she has been diabetic since 18 years and that worsen her case much.


Grandma was always a strong person, managing her house and taking most of the decisions of the family. Watching such strong one collapsing is very hard not only for me but for my mom and my grandpa.


Last time I visited her a couple of a days ago, she was like a skeleton she does not eat anything anymore.. really depressed and wishing she could die so that she won't be a burden...


It is really hard to talk about the situation and I can't really find any words to describe what's going on coz it is unbearable..


Acting like nothing is happening and moving on wiz life, does not really help or even work coz things will never be the same.. I can't laugh anymore and if it happened there is always that bitterness down my throat.. I feel that being happy is not allowed wiz her lying on bed like that for the last 3 months.


Life Will Never Be The Same..


On the other hand, I am all alone wiz my brothers coz mom is staying wiz grandma most of the time. And the two of them are driving me nuts ..I am doing everything in the house and they only watch tv or sit on pc other than that they never do anything useful.


As far as work issues, the usual shit at the pharmacy, doctors leaving, training fresh graduates, working late till 2 am, fighting to improve the sales and failing...


The only good thing that really helps to get through each day is my beloved cats, I enjoy their company more than humans... My "Silvy" gave birth to 4 beautiful kittens : Dongol, Goofy, Pico and Nemo

I can't stop observing all their movements, they are a month and a half old... very cute, lovable, we play and run all day long.. I can't really get enough of them...

I am really tired now, wish u a nice weekend :)

Take care all and plz plz pray for my grandma !!